Inconsistant Emotions

 

You ever have those days where you wake up really happy and in a good mood,

You’re ready to take on the day

and the moment you step outside you’re hit with extreme anxiety?

You sit there wondering what happened,

Why am I sitting here with this palpable sadness?

I was fine just a few minutes ago.

There are days I go about running errands alone 

or just keep myself entertained and feel content,

then other days like today, I just can’t handle being alone.

I look happy…

I have a smile on my face…

but I feel sad and lonely.

What’s that about!?

 

I’ll just have to keep praying for my days and my moods to be consistent.

I’m tired of being happy and those feelings taking a turn for the worse,

for no reason at all…

I‘ll try my very best to be patient with myself though.

Mental illness isn’t always easy to control 

and it definitely isn’t always easy to understand.

 

-Jen, xo

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“She picked up the pieces of her life and created something beautiful. From that day forth she shone like the sun and changed the definition of broken.”
–Randall M. Core