It is a known fact that I am very sensitive and emotional. At first I would take it as an insult when someone would say ” Oh boy, Jen is so sensitive!” or “I didn’t want to say anything because you tend to cry and get overly emotional”. It bugged me that some people thought this was a reason to not speak to me. So of course I disliked this characteristic!
As I became older and started seeking therapy, I’ve learned a lot about myself. I suffer from anxiety, so I feel everything 2x more then another person would. If your feelings are hurt and you feel bad, double that and you’ll feel like me. You’d feel horrible and like a failure and continue obsessing about how you could have dealt with a situation differently. Emotions are just more intense for people suffering with anxiety. Because of this, I’ve learned how to communicate my emotions and sensitivities more clearly. I don’t always stay quiet now and cry and feel depressed. If something bothers me, I will bring it to a person’s attention, whether it makes me uncomfortable or not. I tell them not to worry about my tears because it’s what happens when I am uncomfortable or my feelings are hurt. Just listen to my words.
When I started communicating more clearly about how I was feeling and why, being called sensitive no longer really bothered me. It’s what makes me, well, me! I feel deeply. I love deeply. I think deeply. There is nothing wrong with being this way. Just learn how to communicate with people that way they can truly understand you and they will then see your strength, because let’s be honest, opening up about how you are feeling and why, can be such a difficult thing to do. You may hurt someones feelings in the process, even though that is not your intention. You are standing up for yourself and letting them into your head and heart. That takes a lot of strength!
So be proud of your sensitivity! Be proud of being emotional. Show people you are not afraid to feel. You are not afraid to leave your heart on your sleeve for all to understand you. Be who you are without any apologies. I know it’s easier said than done, but work on becoming this way and you will not regret it :).