The Days Of Disguise: A Poem

The Days Of Disguise


My heart is pounding a hundred miles an hour.

Cold… So cold…

My hands are freezing and feel like ice.

Trembling… I’m trembling…

I can’t stop this involuntary movement my body is making.

My eyes are darting back and forth,

From side to side.

I take one step after the other,

Left foot hitting pavement

Right foot hitting pavement.

I keep my head up to disguise the discomfort I’m feeling. 

People will look at me and smile and I’ll return the smile,

All the while worrying that I may be seen as the fraud that I am.




Can they see my heart beating through my shirt? 

She isn’t strong.

Can they see my eyes shifting back and forth, my hands shaking violently?

She isn’t confident.

Can they see the anxiety that’s swimming through my veins,

Like the blood I need to stay alive? Swimming through me like the blood that is making my ever worried heart pound, harder and harder?

Can they see the worry?

Do they see my truth?

Do they see me?

They smile.

I smile.

They walk past me as I continue on with my disguise.

Written by: Jen


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