With having anxiety, it can be difficult at times to step outside of your comfort zone. What I’ve noticed about myself is that the more something makes me nervous or anxious, the more I push myself to do it. I may not do it right away, because I still need to work up the courage, but it does happen. Recently I accomplished two things that Ive really wanted to do!
On the Friday before my birthday, I finally made reservations to a Painting class where you BYOB. The place was called Paint & Sip. I told my sister in law about it and one of my sister’s and they were down to come with me to celebrate my birthday.
I was so excited to be trying something new! I do NOT know how to paint, so I was wondering just how my painting of a Willow tree and road would look once the class was over lol. The teacher was very sweet and very good at giving step by step instructions. We all sat in rows, with our own blank canvas and a mason jar with water and two brushes. We also had two paper plates with about 6 colors on it. When we got there, we took our seats and my sister in law popped open the bottles of wine she brought: One for her and one as a gift to me, that I drank with my sister :).
By the time the class was ending, I couldn’t believe that we all had willow trees and roads on our canvases! It was such a great class. We talked, laughed, sung along with the radio and just had a nice time over all. Once we were all done, we took pictures of our art work, along with pictures the teacher took, so she could post on their website.
I definitely want to go back! Painting felt very relaxing and the anticipation to see the final product was exciting!
The second thing I was able to accomplish, was waking up SUPER early, to try and see Adele on the Today Show! I wasn’t quite sure how the day would go or if I would actually be able to see her, but I wanted to give it a shot! The plan was for me to go by myself, but I felt it would feel more exciting taking someone with me. So I asked my mom and she was excited to come along :).
The night before I was suppose to go, I was starting to get nervous and anxious because I knew I wasn’t going to get much sleep and I hate traveling while feeling exhausted. What makes me the most anxious though is not knowing the outcome of a certain situation. I told my husband I may not go and he was fine with it because he hates crowds lol. I ended up texting my sis, Tina and telling her the same thing. Her text replies back were of her yelling at me to stop being anxious and to just go DO IT! She said I’m strong and it’s an experience I needed and wanted. She was right of course! I didn’t want to regret not at least trying to see Adele! It was a free event nonetheless. So I said thanks and agreed that I was letting my anxiety get in the way. So I got up from the couch, did what I had to do and went to bed. I woke up 4 hours later, at 4:30a to make my way into Manhattan.
Once I got there, there was already a long line around the block! My mom was running late, so I was there, sleepy and freezing, surrounded by strangers. The mom in front of me seemed nice though and her son who was about 15 was funny, so they made me laugh a few times. At one point I closed my eyes in line and felt like I was going to fall over, so I decided to talk to the lady in front of me. What’s the worse that can happen right? So I told her “at least you have your son bugging you. I’m still waiting for my mom to get here”. She laughed and said “Oh! she slept in!? lucky her!” haha. Finally, at 5:50a, as the line started moving, my mom arrived!
We were in line, chatting and laughing with the lady and son in front of us. We finally got to the Today Show Square at about 8am!
Once we got there, we made some signs and went and stood by the railings. It was freezing but the energy around was was happy and exciting! The workers came outside and told everyone that Adele would perform INSIDE the studios and we’d be able to see her on the monitors they had set up outside :(. They also said she would come outside to say hello for a couple of minutes. That was exciting!
At 8:15a Adele came outside and I saw the back of her! I was so excited! I just kept hoping she would turn around so I could get a picture or walk over to our side, but that never happened! Darn it! They didn’t let her walk all around the square, which I think they should have done. But after she took a few selfies and said hello, she went back inside. All well, at least I saw the back of her and was able to know she was in the building right behind us lol. The cameras barely made there way over to the side where I was with my mom. They stood closer to where you could see the Rockefeller Center Tree. Boooooo! haha.
Despite not being able to see Adele up close or watch her perform in person, it was a lot of fun and very exciting! Mom and I had a nice time together and that’s all that really matters :).
I hope you guys enjoyed a sneak peak into my two accomplished days! When you’re feeling worried or anxious about trying something new, just think about how you will feel once you come out on the other end of it: accomplished and proud of yourself :).